Monthly Archives: November 2020

I have just come through a four year period of intense learning. How do I know I am through it? Because of the way I feel in my mind, body, and soul. Free. No more drama, no more anxiety, no more obsession. Part of this lesson has been the healing of my brain from an injury 5 years ago, but the other part has been leaning into a relationship that has challenged me from the start. By walking up to my demons within me as I interacted with this person, I have made friends with them and they no longer have power to drive my behavior. When you continue to experience difficulty in your relationships stop and ask yourself, “What is it about this interaction that frightens me? “ Because that is why this person is in your life. To help you to see your own demons, embrace them, and make friends with them so you can be free of them.
“Today I will open my eyes to my demons and bless those who are helping me see myself clearly.”

Somewhere when we were very small we were given the idea that we had to live up to other people’s expectations to be loved. Simply being born was not enough of a reason to be worthy of love. Life is a series of mistakes, we do not show up on the planet knowing how to be human. This must be carefully taught. But what if the people who are doing the teaching don’t really know either? From 0 to 8 years old we learn how to BE human. These messages become part of our neural pathways, like the hard drive of our brains. Many of us spend years re-directing these pathways to something more loving and joyful. What I have learned recently is how our own expectations of our personal journey can keep us from experiencing life to it’s fullest. We can be harder on ourselves than any religion, parent, or society. The idea that we can appreciate ourselves RIGHT now in all of our glorious imperfection is the path to self love and compassionate loving. The beautiful part is that when you begin with YOU, it is a gift you give those around you. It is in the gentle, kind, and loving appreciation of yourself, with all your flaws, that you teach the same to everyone in your life. Love it all, know you are committed to becoming the best version of yourself. Treat yourself with all the love and nurturing you wish your family had been able to do.

“Today my only expectation is to be willing to love ALL of ME. Gently and with compassion for all the mistakes I will make along the way in learning to be human.”