I remember being an outsider at school and the subject of quite a bit of bullying. I was a transfer student and was then skipped a grade when I was 10 years old. Being unusual and the focus of the teacher’s attention (even though it was positive attention) made me a likely target of my classmates.
One of the ways I tried to “belong” was to participate in gossip, getting the attention of those popular kids seemed like a good way to get them to like me, to feel connected. But as I learned the hard way, this is false intimacy and only hurt ME in the end. A true friendship is based in like-minded ideas and personalities and when you are a bit different, it can take time to find those who appreciate you.
“Today I will be willing to create real connections based in love and self-acceptance.”